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Dear Readers,
I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting you. Things have been extremely busy around here since starting my new job. Well the truth is that’s not the only reason things have been busy, but I’ll get to that in a bit.
Five weeks ago I started The Fabulously Single Project because my world had spun out of control. I needed something to cling to as I rode out the waves from the latest shitstorm that had blown into my life. I needed something to believe in, so I chose to believe in myself.
What’s happened since has been amazing.
Last night I decided to reward myself for all of my hard work by ordering Chinese food, drinking a glass of wine, laying myself out in a recliner and indulging in a marathon of the shittiest TV show possible: The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills
As I clutched my bloated belly and favorite quilt, I started to think about how happy I am right now and how grateful I am for the people, opportunities, and new beginnings that have come into my single mom life.
I have a job that I love, and when I’m not working I fill the rest of my days doing things that I love. I have friends that I love. I have a beautiful, smart, and completely amazing son that I love. And here comes a bit of a confession: I have an awesome man in my life, who I in no way, shape, or form, went searching for but found nonetheless, who is teaching me how to take down my walls and believe in romantic love again with his kindness, affection, support, and genuine interest in me for me.
He came over my house Saturday night and sat on my couch. Instead of ripping my clothes off, he wrapped his arms around me and stroked my hair as we watched a movie. It was lovely and something I needed more than even I knew.
Prior to Saturday night I didn’t believe there was a man out there who would do such a thing. I’d never been treated that way by a man before, unless it involved him shoving my head in his lap afterwards. I thought moments like that only happened in the movies, because that is what my ex and every other one of my exes had led me to believe with their actions.
Now I know the truth is they were all just douchebags.
Yes, I am still single. Will I remain single for the next 326 days of my Fabulously Single Project? I’m not sure, but I am sure that I am going to continue this project whether I am single or not. We just might have to change the name to “The Fabulous Project” and I’m completely ok with that.
I opened my fortune cookie last night and this is what it said:
“Before you can see the light, you have to deal with the darkness.”
As painful as it was, I’m so glad that I did.
XOXO,
Mely
3 comments
Steve says:
November 22, 2011 at 6:04 PM (UTC -4 )
You don’t have to change the title of your project for several reasons.
You are still single. lol So it applies. The fact that you met someone to share your new life with is such a huge part of the healing process that it BELONGS in the Fabulously Single Project. Good for you!
The last and most important reason is that as you share the downs with us, we need to hear about the ups too!
I think it’s awesome that things are getting brighter.
Steve
Sunny says:
November 23, 2011 at 3:32 PM (UTC -4 )
I am so glad that life is turning around for you. You deserve to be happy.
Tania says:
November 25, 2011 at 10:46 PM (UTC -4 )
And then after the darkness it can be appreciated so much more.